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The Tease of Sterek and Buddie. Queerbaiting and Following Through

  Defining Sterek and Buddie - Sterek is the 'ship name for the characters of Stiles Stilinski and Derek Hale on the MTV show, Teen Wolf. Teen Wolf ran on the cable channel from 2011-2017. Buddie is the 'ship name for the characters of Evan 'Buck' Buckley and Eddie Diaz on the show 9-1-1. 9-1-1 ran on the broadcast channel, FOX, from 2018-2023. As of March 2024, and with it's 7th season, it is now on ABC.  Teen Wolf Stars Quotes on Sterek 'In the past, anytime I've been asked about [Sterek], I feel like it's come out wrong. But it is a big thing, and we support it. We support everything the fans like, and however they love the show is how they love the show. We love that." - Dylan O'Brien in an interview with TVLine's Andy Swift on March 24, 2014 https://tvline.com/interviews/teen-wolf-season-3-finale-spoilers-dylan-obrien-interview-504103/   "The Sterek stuff, you know, it's weird. I feel like every once in awhile I'd see somet

Finding Myself and Complete Healing

  Life gets hard and it gets messed up When you give so much, but it's not enough When the high's too high and the low's too low When you love someone and they let you go Don't you let it kill you Even when it hurts like hell Oh, whatever tears you apart Don't let it break your heart Time takes time to heal it You can't do it by yourself Oh, whatever tears you apart Don't let it break you heart. - Don't Let It Break Your Heart by Louis Tomlinson released in 2020 on his album Walls Okay, I know I used this song in the last blog. But it's just that good that it fits this one, too. Anyway... This whole finding myself and healing thing has been a very long process. It started back in October of 2018, when my last relationship ended. I had to face the knowledge that I had - for the 3rd time in a row - allowed myself to get in a relationship with an abusive, narcissistic, controlling person. That realization didn't sit well, and I went a bit crazy for

Believing in my worth

  When the high's too high and the low's too low When you love someone and they let you go Don't let it kill you, even when it hurts like hell Oh, whatever tears you apart, don't let it break your heart Time takes time to heal it, You can't do it by yourself Oh, whatever tears you apart, Don't let it break your heart It comes and it goes We're driving down a one way road To something better, something better When what hurts you is gonna pass And you'll have learned from it when it comes back You'll be doing better, yeah, doing better - Don't Let It Break Your Heart by Louis Tomlinson released on his 2020 album Walls  I'll be honest, I was not a 1D fan when they were together. Not because they weren't good, because they were. It was just not the kind of music I was listening to, at that time in my life. I have always had an on again off again relationship with pop music, and this was an off period. But in the last few years, it has been on

Saying Goodbye - The Good and The Bad

  You slipped a couple of times, but it's fine "Cause if I started pointing fingers, you would see mine I don't wanna judge you You see from the side when I'm blind You're the one I'm callin' when I need a lifeline. But I don't wanna lose you Whatever weather, if it's rain or shine Whether it's pain, pleasure, good and hard times We might go 'round and 'round, but I won't back down People they come and people they go When the leaves change and the colors they show Can you hold on through the seasons Through the seasons Through every high and through every low A beautiful lie, it never gets old Can you hold on through the seasons? - Seasons by Thirty Seconds to Mars released July 2023 on their It's The End Of The World But It's A Beautiful Day  Thirty Seconds to Mars has to be one of the best Alternative groups to exist. It's hard to believe that the lead singer, Jared Leto, first won my devotion way back in 1994 as the co

Falling in love, the past, and how it all connects. For me, anyway.

  'Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide eyed gaze. We're singing in the car, getting lost upstate. Autumn leaves are falling down like pieces into place. And I can picture it after all these days.  And I know it's long gone and that magic's not here, no more. And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all. 'Cause there we are again, on that little town street. You almost ran the red, 'cause you were looking over at me.  Wind in my hair, I was there I remember it all too well.  - All Too Well (Taylor's Version & Short Film) released in November 2021 on Red (Taylor's Version) and as a video (starring Sadie Sink and Dylan O'Brien)  I was listening to this song on the way to work, not long ago. Yes, I'm a Swiftie, now. Blame, or thank, Dylan O'Brien. Anyway, it hit me that this song, as beautiful and heartfelt and sad as it is - and as much as I love it - did not make me think of anyone. No nostalgic thoughts or memories of, or lingering

Ohio Issue 1, a Woman's right to decide, and my own story

 Normally, I would post lyrics from a song or quotes from interviews that pertain to the topic of the blog, right here. But that didn't feel right for this one. Instead, I will give you the following links. The first two are about Issue 1 and the third is an article about women who have had abortions.  https://19thnews.org/2023/10/ohio-issue-1-what-to-know-abortion-amendment-november/   https://ballotpedia.org/Ohio_Issue_1,Right_to_Make_Reproductive_Decisions_Including_Abortion_Initiative(2023) https://people.com/celebrity-abortion-stories-5705723 The fact that this is even a debate and that I feel compelled to write on it, is an insult. I am deeply ashamed of every single woman that is opposed to this bill.  Let me explain.  Just like in many other states, the tyrannical Republican party decided that women were no longer worthy or intelligent enough to make decisions about their own bodies or lives. Ohio is now putting this to a vote on our November ballot. Somehow, this branch of

Green Arrow - Why Oliver Queen is the best Superhero.

  "Armed with only his bow and quiver, Oliver Queen has been targeting the criminals of the DC Universe for 75 years as the Green Arrow." - Beginning of back cover blurb on the collection Green Arrow: A Celebration of 75 Years. "A thrilling reimagining of Oliver Queen's beginnings as Green Arrow." - CBR review on back cover of Green Arrow: Year One "Green Arrow is one of the most inviting and well done comics of the bunch." - USA Today review on front cover of  Green Arrow: The Midas Touch Vol. 1  "Delightful and quirky" - Nerdist review on back cover of Green Arrow Vol. 1 The Death and Life of Oliver Queen  "One of DC's best ongoing titles." - IGN review on front cover of Green Arrow Vol. 2: Island of Scars "A heroic future forged by a tortured past." - A tagline for Arrow Season 1 "His city burns. Will he fight fire with fire?" - A tagline for Arrow Season 2 "Those closest to you can hurt you the most.

If That's Heaven, Send Me Straight To Hell

  I did my time in the pews I took the biblical abuse I sang the hymns  When I didn't even want to I sat through the sermons To hear them say  My friends would go to Hell But if that's sinning  Then send me straight to Hell as well Then send me straight to Hell as well Pastor, pastor please  Why is it that women shouldn't preach And that there's parts of that book That you don't like to teach I'm not the only one confused  - Hell As Well by We Three from their Love Me album, released on July 21, 2023 I just discovered We Three on TikTok about a week ago, but they have become one of my favorites. The above song was the first one I heard by them, as it was featured in the TikTok video I saw. Boy did it hit home. Like every single word of it hit me like a battering ram. The lyrics to this song hit so close, they could have written it about my life.  I grew up in the church. From the time I was very young, until I was 13 years old. I sat there listening to the preac

Coping, Rebuilding, and Finding That Somewhere I Belong

  I wanna heal, I wanna feel What I thought was never real I wanna let go of the pain I felt so long I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like I'm close to something real I wanna find something I've wanted all along Somewhere I belong - Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park released on their 2003 album Meteora This poor blog has been so neglected in the last couple months. Since losing my mom, it was like everything just froze. Especially me. There have been so many emotions and thoughts and everything just constantly swirling through me. My emotional and mental states have been a ridiculous roller coaster ride.  Another reason is that I feel like every time I open my mouth or put my fingers to my keyboard, it is to whine and talk about how hard the last couple of months have been. I am sure that everyone is tired of hearing about my trauma. Or reading about it. I mean, who wants to hear or read depressing stuff all the time? I hate the thought of being the girl that is constantly bringing p

Uniting the Minority Communities - Why the Black, Jewish, LGBTQ+, Asian, and Native American Communities need to stand together.

  This is the story of a flag so faded, long in flight Upon which, after years of silence, blue and red have bled to white. So, to those in power and your sycophantic thrall You've raised your tower, but castles fall.  They think we shout because they made us.  No! We revel in our noise. We are the devil they're afraid of. For we fight this war with joy Lay down your guns, sing out in unison. Come! Fight! The inside us, dies in silence. Red lines, streaking up the pavement. See the road beyond.  White lies, creeping up their faces. We keep rolling on.  We rise, even when the pain is all we know.  Well friends, we stand against an army. And alarmingly, they've made their minds up.  But we can't survive that way We tried that before, we wised up.  And no amount of shouting in the streets or at our screens Is going to make them rise up with us.  And see the forest for the trees that burn And further light the fire in our eyes - Red Lines, White Lies by Age of Madness relea

Dawson's Creek "Show Me Love' Season 3

  Pacey - Wow, Dawson Leery couldn't have scripted this one any better.  Joey - What do you mean?  Pacey - Don't you get it? No matter what I do, he wins. If I drop out, he wins. If I stay in the race, I'm forced into direct competition with the guy. And, if I actually win, I don't beat him - I beat you. So, guess who really wins, there? Joey - Well, maybe you could talk to him. Try to work it out. Pacey - Yeah, we tried that. He doesn't really wanna talk to me, right now. And when he does, it's not entirely civil.  Joey - Could you try again, Pacey, please? Pacey - Yeah, if that's what you want. If that's all that you want? Joey - It's all that I want.  Pacey - Okay. Okay, that what I'll do. Joey - Thank you, Pacey. Pacey - Yeah. Hey, Potter! Nice talking to ya.  - Show Me Love, Episode 21 Season 3  I have to vent about this episode for a minute - or longer. And what better place to do that than my own blog, started for just such moments? This e

Spirituality, Science, Religion - Quantum Entanglement, Soulmates, Past Lives. Is It All Connected?

  No matter where we're going I'll be by your side And everything we used to know Crashed into the great unknown One step closer We're gonna be alright 'Cause even underneath the waves I'll be holding onto you And even if you slip away I'll be there to fall Into the dark to chase your heart No distance could ever tear us apart There's nothing that I wouldn't do I'll find my way back to you On my way, now Don't give up on me And no one knows what What tomorrow brings These weary eyes will never rest Until they look in yours again I'm on my way now I still believe  - Find My Way Back by Eric Arjes, released in November of 2015  I first heard this song during Episode 16 of Season 5 of Teen Wolf - yes, that show again. It plays during a scene when Stiles (you knew that name was coming, ha) rushes in to save Lydia from a terrible situation. Since then, the song has kind of become synonymous with the 'Stydia' relationship in my mind. It is