MeganDawn_Writes as MystikCeleste

 I have been quite fascinated with the topic of love and falling in love, the last couple months. Back in December, I wrote about realizing that I have never truly been in love. That realization has been on my mind a lot since occurring to me.  I was talking to a friend, today, about relationships and love and being independent. He had some very interesting insights on being independent and commented that he felt that a person could become too independent. And no, this wasn't a guy being a typical guy and trying to say that women need men. He was adamant that men are just as guilty of being too independent and thinking that they don't need a woman.  He was also quick to clarify that there was nothing wrong with being independent, but he believes that we all need someone in our lives to be there for us, to offer support, and all of that. I'm paraphrasing and summing up, here. And I agree with him 100%. I have to say, it was very fascinating to hear the views of this topic,...

"It doesn't have to be deep Doesn't have to be hard. If we want it. Do you want it? Yeah, I want it. Then lower that guard. Finding my maturity Stepping into a new spark. Do I got it? Yeah, you got it, really got it.  Then we could start Getting a little bit closer Going beyond what's on paper Unexpected life can happen when you make room. Keeping up the composure, but  Probably not for much longer. Cuz if you let it in For just a second, suddenly Something here may want to bloom." - Bloom from In Pieces: A New Musical written by Joey Contreras and performed by Antonio Cipriano and Stephanie Torns, released in June 2024 I have really been giving a lot of thought to this never having been in love thing. I have wondered how this has affected the way I view everything else in my life - like my favorite movies and shows and the characters in them that I relate the most too. More on that in the next blog. And I have been wondering if that has - without me realizing it ...

  Teardrops are falling Down your face again, 'cause I  Don't know how to love you when I am broken, too Maybe your words make sense I could be the problem, I'm so sorry I know we could just be friends But I don't know when we come down from this, softly Checking on my phone, tryna see what I did last night Baby, I'm hating on myself 'cause I hate it when I make you cry  I know I have written about this, before, but I cannot stop thinking about this whole 'never having been in love' thing. It's kind of becoming an obsession. Not in a bad way or an in denial kind of way. Just the opposite, in fact. Looking back on my past and my previous relationships, I am 99.9% that it is true.  It's the question of 'why' that has become the obsession.  Am I incapable of being in love?  Clearly, I am capable of loving because I know I love my children beyond all reason. And there are a few friends that I know that I love. I know that I love them because ...

  I hate the phrase 'Love conquers all' And I hate that it's true 'Cause I wanna not hate things  When I'm with you You love so many things And you have so much fun It makes me wish My hating days were done. - I Hate Everything But You from Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Season 4, as performed by Skylar Astin, Written by Rachel Bloom, Adam Schlesinger & Jack Dolgen I'll be honest - and if you've been following this blog at all, this will not come as a surprise - when Crazy Ex-Girlfriend was originally on, I only watched Season 4. And, yes, that was because Skylar came on. However, I have now seen all 4 seasons and it is a great show. And relatable if you have ever struggled with your mental health.  But to the song above, there is so much to love about this little song. Skylar's hilarious delivery and Rachel's genius lyrics, aside, of course.  It is the perfect definition of a paradox. And it works, brilliantly. In my opinion, the first line here is one of ...