MeganDawn_Writes as MystikCeleste

  Oh, Philip, when you smile I am undone My son, look at my son Pride is not the word I'm looking for There is so much more inside me now Oh, Philip, you outshine the morning sun My son When you smile, I fall apart And I thought I was so smart - Dear Theodosia by Lin-Manuel Miranda as performed by Lin-Manuel and Leslie Odom Jr. in the musical Hamilton Well, neither of my kids is named Phillip, but everything else in this song describes how I feel about my boys. All through my teenage years, I was told that I would most likely not be able to have kids. I don't remember all the medical jargon, but there is some kind of abnormality in my uterus or uterine lining or something. This is the reason my periods have always been abnormal and has caused other issues throughout my teen and adult years. So, I had made my peace - at a young age - that I would never be a mom. Around April of 1995, I found out I was pregnant. I was scared but so happy. A few mo...

  Wasn't I worth the time? A boy needs a daddy like a dance to mime  And all the time, I looked up to you I paced my room a million times And all I ever got was one big line The same old lie, how could you? Well, I was eighteen years and still talkin to myself Where were you Where'd you go Daddy, can't you tell, no And I'm not tryna fake it and I ain't the one to blame No, there's no one home in my house of pain And I didn't write these pages and my scripts been rearranged No, there's no one home in my house of pain - House of Pain by Faster Pussycat released on their 1989 album Wake Me When It's Over What a powerful song. This one was definitely one of the many anthems of my angst-ridden teen years. Faster Pussycat put into words what thinking about my father did to me, much better than I could at that time. The pain and anger in Taime Downe's voice was a living expression of my own feelings. This song was Emo way before Emo was cool.  I am real...