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Carroll Ohio - My Paradise, My Purgatory. Healing and Moving Forward

  Grew up in a small town And when the rain would fall down I'd just stare out my window Dreaming of what could be And if I'd end up happy I would pray (I would pray)  Trying hard to reach out But when I tried to speak out Felt like no one could hear me Wanted to belong here But something felt so wrong here So I would pray (I would pray) I could break away I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly I'll do what it takes til I touch the sky And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change And break away - Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson, released on her 2004 album Breakaway What a great song. So much power and pain, heart and soul packed into those 4 minutes. The emotion that Kelly puts into every word is hauntingly beautiful, heart breaking, and way too relatable. The first time I heard this song, it went straight to my soul. I felt every single word in every fiber of my being.  I have spent most of my life in this very small town. My relationship with this pl...

Bad Choices, Heartbreak, and Choosing the Single Life

  Say something, I'm giving up on you I'll be the one if you want me to. Anywhere, I would have followed you. Say something, I'm giving up on you. And I - I'm feeling so small It was over my head, I know nothing at all. And I will stumble and fall.  I'm still learning to love, just starting to crawl Say something, I'm giving up on you. I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.  Anywhere, I would've followed you. Say something, I'm giving up on you.  - Performed by Skylar Astin as Max on Season 2 of Zoey's Extraordinary Playlists, originally by A Great Big World This is such a poignant song. And every time I listen to it, Skylar just breaks my heart. The pain in his voice is so real, that I cannot help but wonder what he was thinking about to get him in that place.  So why do I listen to the song so often, if it breaks me? Well, being in love with Skylar's voice, aside - the song just really hits something inside of me. Remember that conversat...