MeganDawn_Writes as MystikCeleste

  Oh, Philip, when you smile I am undone My son, look at my son Pride is not the word I'm looking for There is so much more inside me now Oh, Philip, you outshine the morning sun My son When you smile, I fall apart And I thought I was so smart - Dear Theodosia by Lin-Manuel Miranda as performed by Lin-Manuel and Leslie Odom Jr. in the musical Hamilton Well, neither of my kids is named Phillip, but everything else in this song describes how I feel about my boys. All through my teenage years, I was told that I would most likely not be able to have kids. I don't remember all the medical jargon, but there is some kind of abnormality in my uterus or uterine lining or something. This is the reason my periods have always been abnormal and has caused other issues throughout my teen and adult years. So, I had made my peace - at a young age - that I would never be a mom. Around April of 1995, I found out I was pregnant. I was scared but so happy. A few mo

Don't mind me I'm a fuck up, a manic depressive, a loser, a best friend You might call it human So, don't mind me if I let you down 'Cause I promise I always I'm doing the best that I can Look around a little and it ain't that bad I guess it's hard to understand Life when it hits you in the face with a backhand I'm doing the best that I can Over and over getting up when I fall back  Tell me is this part of the plan?  Fuck it. Keep my head up. I'm doing the best I Don't mind me (I'm doing the best I can.)  - Don't Mind Me by Tyler Posey, released in 2023 on his album Unravel  This song can apply to many people in many situations. For me, it's the perfect explanation of what it is like being me. I've said it before and I am sure I will say it many more times in my life, most of Tyler's songs are way too relatable for me. It's like he could have written them about my life. The fact that they are all about his own life, and wh

  Teardrops are falling Down your face again, 'cause I  Don't know how to love you when I am broken, too Maybe your words make sense I could be the problem, I'm so sorry I know we could just be friends But I don't know when we come down from this, softly Checking on my phone, tryna see what I did last night Baby, I'm hating on myself 'cause I hate it when I make you cry  I know I have written about this, before, but I cannot stop thinking about this whole 'never having been in love' thing. It's kind of becoming an obsession. Not in a bad way or an in denial kind of way. Just the opposite, in fact. Looking back on my past and my previous relationships, I am 99.9% that it is true.  It's the question of 'why' that has become the obsession.  Am I incapable of being in love?  Clearly, I am capable of loving because I know I love my children beyond all reason. And there are a few friends that I know that I love. I know that I love them because

  Defining Sterek and Buddie - Sterek is the 'ship name for the characters of Stiles Stilinski and Derek Hale on the MTV show, Teen Wolf. Teen Wolf ran on the cable channel from 2011-2017. Buddie is the 'ship name for the characters of Evan 'Buck' Buckley and Eddie Diaz on the show 9-1-1. 9-1-1 ran on the broadcast channel, FOX, from 2018-2023. As of March 2024, and with it's 7th season, it is now on ABC.  Teen Wolf Stars Quotes on Sterek 'In the past, anytime I've been asked about [Sterek], I feel like it's come out wrong. But it is a big thing, and we support it. We support everything the fans like, and however they love the show is how they love the show. We love that." - Dylan O'Brien in an interview with TVLine's Andy Swift on March 24, 2014 https://tvline.com/interviews/teen-wolf-season-3-finale-spoilers-dylan-obrien-interview-504103/   "The Sterek stuff, you know, it's weird. I feel like every once in awhile I'd see somet

  Life gets hard and it gets messed up When you give so much, but it's not enough When the high's too high and the low's too low When you love someone and they let you go Don't you let it kill you Even when it hurts like hell Oh, whatever tears you apart Don't let it break your heart Time takes time to heal it You can't do it by yourself Oh, whatever tears you apart Don't let it break you heart. - Don't Let It Break Your Heart by Louis Tomlinson released in 2020 on his album Walls Okay, I know I used this song in the last blog. But it's just that good that it fits this one, too. Anyway... This whole finding myself and healing thing has been a very long process. It started back in October of 2018, when my last relationship ended. I had to face the knowledge that I had - for the 3rd time in a row - allowed myself to get in a relationship with an abusive, narcissistic, controlling person. That realization didn't sit well, and I went a bit crazy for

  When the high's too high and the low's too low When you love someone and they let you go Don't let it kill you, even when it hurts like hell Oh, whatever tears you apart, don't let it break your heart Time takes time to heal it, You can't do it by yourself Oh, whatever tears you apart, Don't let it break your heart It comes and it goes We're driving down a one way road To something better, something better When what hurts you is gonna pass And you'll have learned from it when it comes back You'll be doing better, yeah, doing better - Don't Let It Break Your Heart by Louis Tomlinson released on his 2020 album Walls  I'll be honest, I was not a 1D fan when they were together. Not because they weren't good, because they were. It was just not the kind of music I was listening to, at that time in my life. I have always had an on again off again relationship with pop music, and this was an off period. But in the last few years, it has been on